The DILF

 The man, the myth, the one who leaves me wondering...

 

He consumed me for so long. For years I lust for him. For years he was just out of reach. For a short period I thought all my fantasies were going to be fulfilled, yet I am still here all these years later not even knowing what his kiss feels like. 

 He took me out, he sat next to me for hours at a time but never did he touch me. Never did he lay his hands on my skin and please me in the way that I yearned for. I am left with these thoughts, with wishing I knew what it sounded like when he moaned or how it felt to have his lips and tongue explore me. 

 

Next weekend there is a slight chance we will be in the same space again after a very long time. I know what when I see him I will feel all those same things, but will he? Does he ever think about me, does he ever want to do all the things we spoke about. Does he want to be pleased and to please me? I may never know the answer. What I do know though is that I still lust for him like I did the first time I ever set eyes on him inside that stadium. 

 

I still want you CK. I think I always will. 

 

Sexy Jess x 

when it rains it pours

 When you have just been living your life... Being a mum, being a partner and then it all just blows up! Not entirely. Not in the immediacy of right now... but it feels like things have shifted. 

 

People keep coming into your life in ways that you crave. They have been reappearing in a constant stream. Telling me everything I want to hear. Pulling my heart in so many different direction. I feel like things can't go back to how they were. There have been too many beautiful situations placed in front of me for me to be able to stay where I am...

Let Me Paint The Picture

 It is 11pm on a Saturday night. I have just been to the footy with my family and we have decided to stop into Mc Donalds to get a late night snacky. While I stand and wait for my food to VERY SLOWLY make it's way to the counter. 

I see a familiar face come in the door. It is the face of the woman's who's husband I blogged about not too long ago. The one who disappeared of the face of the earth... So she walks towards me and says hi, I am thinking hmmmm this is out of the way for her. We see each other around so I didn't think anything of it. She then asks me if there is anything I want to tell her. I reply with no, and she asks me the question again. I am like maybe you need to ask your husband that question. She tells me she has heard his side of the story so wants to hear mine. I am like we slept together... she then starts ranting something at me about sisterhood etc. Then she asks for details. I tell her we fucked a few times and it was years ago. I did not go into the deets that we loved each other etc. I didn't think that would bode well for this already VERY awkward VERY public conversation. 

So she keeps going at me, sand my food arrives. I collect it and I tell her is she wants to keep having this conversation how about we move it out of the way of all the people who just wanna collect their Big Macs and gtfo of there. I walk past her kid and give an awkies half smile to which I am told to not smile at her lol So she continues to yell at me about fucking her husband and I'm like lady I was not the one who was married. I was a single human living my single human life. 

This woman then decided to point out to me that I had my own family... like I didn't know this. I was like no shit mate, I also don't cheat on my partner. She then went me about having an open relationship and "do you just get to fuck anyone you want?". I was like mate we have rules, we have trust and we have open communication so how about go yell at the person who cheated on you about all this. So I left to walk across the car park to the car with my partner waiting for me in it. She follows me out, as does her kid and she is ranting at me still about fucking her husband, LOUDLY! I am sure to try and create a stir with my partner. I tell him to wind the windows up, I get in the car as she is STILL following me and we leave... He has heard what she is on about. 

As we drive off he asks me what that was about, and I say you know exactly what that was about, and he does. Because I had told him about the situation. Because I am honest with him. Because this married man not that long ago tried to catch up and I asked if my partner was ok with this. He was not and advised me to "not shit where I eat".... what apt advice that was and how fitting the shit all went down in an establishment that sells food. 

Keen not to have a repeat of that situation haha

School Yard Crushes

I think everyone at some stage had a crush on at least one teacher while they were at school. Uni etc is a whole other ball game! In high school I had 3 separate crushes and all for very different reasons. There was a PE teacher, an English teacher and the other was a music teacher. I was lucky enough to be taught by all of them so I had extra time to get caught up in the lusty day dreams, while trying to learn. 

I lusted over these men for different reasons. The PE teacher had sparkling blue eyes, a smile that made me wet and legs that I couldn't take my eyes off. One day I remember him sitting on the table, feet on a seat and his legs were spread. That day is burned into my brain coz I swear I thought about it every day for the following 6 months. I also don't know how I didn't cum on the spot. I broke a finger while in his class and he was literally like "Jess you just want my attention". He wasn't wrong... but alas 20 years later I still have a bung knuckle lol fuck what I would have done to drop to my knees and suck that mans cock!

The music teacher was super cute. He was also so kind and caring.A man who cared and who made sure his students were nurtured and encouraged. I always found great comfort whenever I was with him. I guess my crush on him was a tad more subdued... the others were primal.

The English teacher... I think he is the person who sparked my desire for smart, witty, snarky and sarcastic men. He took no shit and was happy to give it to students as he got it. He was so intelligent and dry. I wanted him so fucking bad. He was also much older (also something that would become a theme in my life). He never took my shit and that really did it for me. I remember once writing a story for a competition and it had some pretty spicy bits and he had to proof read it for me... I wonder if he ever knew that I wanted him. In my perverted teenage brain I wanted him to read the story and it be enough for him to throw me against a wall and fuck me there and then... Alas he was not a shit human so that never took place.

Just thrown away...

 A few years ago I fell in love with a married man... We had an affair for a good while. He made me laugh, he made me feel safe and he made me cum harder than anyone ever had. We were in love, but he made it clear he would never leave his family to be with me.

Since then I have started a relationship and had a child... we have remained friends because before we were together we were friends for a long long time. Our connect was built off the back of a strong and easy friendship. This week that all came crashing down. 

I am very honest with people about my relationship and how it works. I have made a commitment to someone, and he is aware of who I fuck and when I fuck them. He has the right to veto people and that decision is final. I will not deceive him and my relationship will always come first. 

The man mentioned above had been vetoed and I had told him this. Regardless of this he continued to try and I continued to tell him that nothing was going to happen. If people choose to cheat on their partners that is their choice, I have fucked many married men and do not pass judgement on that decision, but it is not one I will make. 

So this week again he tried and again he was told that no. He asked if he should stop messaging me and I said no. I enjoy having him in my life, he is a good man and a good friends. I did however tell him that if he is only messaging to try and get in my pants then it is in vain... I had not heard from him and discovered he had unfollowed/removed/unfriended me on every platform we were on. It stung but I guess there was the answer to what he thought of me. I thought he had loved me, but he just liked me to inflate his ego and stroke his cock.

What Do You Do

 When the very essence of your being is ripped away? I have been super quite for many months now, because I have been facing some long term and very brutal health stuff to do with all the bits that bring the most joy!

No fucking, no masturbating, just feeling lost and sexually frustrated! Everyone cross their everything that my trip to the specialist brings a Christmas Miracle and I can fuck my way into the new year like I used to!

Haunted by the ghost!

 On two separate occasions in the past few months I been ghosted so hard and fast it has left my head spinning... both times it has been with men who I have had incredibly intense and real connections with. 

We start chatting and things move FAST and they get DEEP then boom.... they're gone. No reason, no warning they're just gone and feel like a figment of my imagination. Both have returned and given bullshit excuses and then we're right back where we were, because I am a sucker for intensity and the thrill of the chase. 

The latest ghosting happened this week. He vanished and when I tried to contact him his account had been deactivated. It has really thrown me, probably more than it should. I just want to know why. I want the truth. I hate being left wondering. 

Hotties

 Fuck me! I just had the hottest cam sex with a chick. I don't think I've ever actually cammed with another female before, but fuck me I couldn't stop . She was fucking incredible and could cum as often as me. Which is always impressive! 

I usually admire the ladies from a far coz it isn't often I find one I am into enough that I want to fuck her. Honestly the last one was a good 15 years ago... but this babe, well I want my face buried in her cunt and her fist deep inside me! 

May the horndog gods delivery that to me!

How Do I Learn Self Control?

 3 times in the past couple of months I have fucked/masturbated so hard I have broken myself and put myself out of action for a week or so lol 

 I know it is going to happen but I just can't help myself. My need for intensity, my need to feel pleasure. It gets the better of me and I push things too far. The other day I was told to stop by the person I was with coz I was going to end up sore and still I refused to let things be stopped.... and what happened. I ended up VERY sore!

I am yours

 Take me! 

You open the door and my mind is a whir...

I want to feel your fingertips trace over my skin as you softly kiss my neck. I want to feel my breath get caught in the back of my throat as you slowly undress me. For my hands to move over your chest and make their way down to feel as you get hard. To know that I am the reason you are hard, to be the reason you moan and writhe with pleasure. I place my hands on your neck, I pull your lips toward mine. I have longed for so long to taste you, to feel your tongue massage mine. You bite my lip and I let out a whimper. I am already so wet and I've only just walked in the door, still in the doorway, the door ajar. Unable to wait another second to be together. 

It has been 10 years of lusting from across the country. 10 years of pleasuring ourselves virtually to each other. The images and scenarios we have conjured up in that time would be enough to make anyone blush. Here we are, together at last and we are going to make every last second count. You close the door with your foot and drop to your knees. You lift my dress and bury your face in my crotch, smelling my desire. Feeling the heat radiate from me, knowing that I am dripping with want under that thin layer of lace. 

You lift my right leg over your shoulder and I lean back against the door. You pull the lace to one side and part my lips. I can feel the cold air on my clit and it takes my breath away, and then your mouth is on me and I am starved of oxygen. I gasp, one hand on the door the other on the back of your head. I involuntarily grind against you. I have touched myself so many times imagining this moment but my imagination has not done it justice. The way your tongue circles my clit, you gently sucking it. It makes me quiver. I am looking down at you, taking it all in. I want to watch as you make me cum. I want to enjoy every moment. Your hand traces it's way up to my stomach to my tits. You grab a handful, not moving as your mouth is still on my pussy. You pull at my bra and expose my nipple. You pinch it and I moan loudly. You know that's what I like, you've seen me do it to myself many times. You know I need you to pinch it harder. You twist and pull my nipples and I squirt into your mouth. I hear you moan. You like that, and so do I. 

I tell you that I want your cock in my mouth. You look up at me with your deep dark eyes full of desire. You slowly lower my leg and stand to kiss me. I can taste my pussy on your lips, on your tongue. You smell like me and it is so fucking sexy. I move my hands down to undo your pants. I slide my hand in, you have no underwear on so my hand is wrapped around your cock instantly. You are hard as a rock and as I begin to stroke you, you close your eyes and I just watch you with pure lust. I kiss my way from your lips down your neck, not taking my hands off you. I kneel in front of you and take your cock in my mouth. It is sweet with the taste of your precum. Your hands move immediately to be entwined in my hair. You set the pace, guiding my mouth over your cock, our eyes locked as I look up at you. Every now and then you stop me, you tell me that you aren't going to cum for a long while yet. You just want to enjoy feeling your cock slide into my mouth, hitting the back of my throat every so often. You look down at me and say "Let's move to the bed so I can enjoy you some more" I smile, your cock still in my mouth. 

You take my hands and lift me so we are standing eye to eye again, you run your fingers through my hair again, but grab a handful this time and pull me forcefully towards you. You kiss me hard, the jolt of my hair and your tongue in my mouth sends electricity shooting down through my cunt. I don't know how you manage to be sensual and so forceful all at once. I am yours for the taking... I can't wait for what's next.

How to make her cum...

 I have a friend who struggles to cum. This makes me sad for her! I have given her my best toy recs, I have given her tips but nothing seems to work! I need to help her have a life filled with mind blowing orgasms!

How I Love

To see you pleasuring yourself to me...

Knowing I am the reason you are aroused, I am why you are touching yourself & ultimately I am who you cum for!

 

He strikes again

 That man, who as soon as his name pops up your pussy tingles. Every word he says makes you moan out loud. How can someone who has never laid hands on you make you writhe with pleasure? Your hips begin to thrust as you type, you bite your lip, you become wet... just from the thought of him. 

He is magic, he is addictive, he is pure sex appeal.

How Did Stella Actually Get Her Groove Back?

 I find myself single for the first time in years...

It's funny how quickly old habits reform, but how do you actually move on? How do you take the leap back out there into the at times VERY shallow dating pool? Dating is probably the wrong word. as I honestly I'm just looking to get fucked into oblivion. 

I didn't think it would be this difficult. Maybe I am just setting my expectations too high for that first, expecting earth shattering when I should really be aiming for a slight tremor.

PEACE AND LUST

SEXY JESS

Unbelievable Lust

Do you ever meet someone and you become completely consumed with lust? You don't even need to spend much time with them, but it's enough to light a fire of desire deep within. They way they move, their mannerisms, they just draw you in.

I am currently a lusty mess and don't know what to do with myself...

Love thy cock

I have sex with a lot of people who have had super varied cocks. Some big, some small, some thin, some thick. Let me tell you from first hand experience the size of your cock is not what determines the pleasure you can give. Your attitude, your willingness to experiment and your enthusiasm is what will bring a woman to a screaming climax. Dont be ashamed of your cock, don't fantasise about and normalise huge cocks. Expand your mind, view bodies like yours. Celebrate your glorious member! And if you're struggling Read This article.

PEACE AND LUST

SEXY JESS 

Please read!

WHAT WOMEN WANT

Good Sex, Bad Sex

Round and Round and Round Sex!
What makes sex good or bad? Who is to say that something someone does or is into is wrong? I have sex with my fair share of people and each person is different. Not all people have been a good fit for me sexually and those are people I generally only fuck once. Pleasure is so subjective, I feel that it is not ok to label someone a "dud root" just because they didn't work for you. There may be another human out there in the world who they fit perfectly with and whose mind they blow!

Having said that I find it very interesting hearing people tell me about people they're fucked. Recently I had someone tell me about a woman they fucked who was super into them sexually, but just didn't get wet. Now every woman is different, and each woman's body will change and react differently through her cycle and life. But I hate to break it to you if a woman has zero lubrication and is under the age of 60 she's likely not that into it. She can act like she wants to fuck your brains out, but her body won't lie.

I also recently had sex where the dude needed to use lube. I am the wettest woman I, and a lot of men know. So if you are needing to reach for the water based mate in the draw you are not doing it right. You are not listening to the woman's body you are with. You are showing no interest in making sure that you are going to please her. You are solely focused on your cock and THAT is not ok! This also led to me spending all of the time his cock was inside me wincing because he was hammering my cervix because I! WAS! NOT! AROUSED! Fun fact, the vaginal opening expands and elongates when a woman is turned on, so warm her up! Save her from unneeded and unwanted pain! 3 licks of her pussy will not suffice.

Pay attention to your sexual partner, it's in the small details. The little gasp of breath, the twinge of their mouth, the grabbing of the sheets. There are the less subtle signed, arched backs, moans and grinding. When these happen pay attention to what you're doing. Do it again, see if you get the same reaction. Does the kissing get deeper, does their breath get shorter? If the answer is yes, then you're on the right track!

Also men please note that orgasms can be faked by women in all instances. I had someone tell me that a woman couldn't fake an orgasms when they  were receiving oral sex. He said that a woman he fucked once would clench his head with her thighs like a vice. Newsflash homies! We can fake it any time anywhere. You just need to find a nice honest woman who can't be fucked faking it. Or up your game so they have zero fucking reason to pretend!

PEACE AND LUST

SEXY JESS

Deep Breaths Baby

Get ready... I am going to slide this deep inside you!